I Didn't Want to Give UP
I Took up Challenge
I Gave Up
农笑非 5 Nov 2008
When I got home from that construction field
in the late evening, I found Ms Y sitting in a lounge couch,
chatting away with my mother-in-law.
Ms Y was my mother-in-law's friend and a saleswoman
for life insurance. From her, my mother-in-law purchased
two insurance plans for my son, each cost 1,800 yuans a
Seeing I returned home, Ms Y promptly handed
me a receipt, saying she had already paid for me with her
I didn't know what to say, except telling her
that I had no money at the moment, but would pay her back
in a couple of days.
That night, I wasn't able to sleep, so sat
alone in the dark lounge smoking, like I frequently did in
those days. When my in-laws went to toilet in the small hours,
they must have noticed the red light from my cigarette, but
they did not for once stop to inquire why I couldn't sleep.
I felt in this family I was transparent as if were air.
Two days late, when I rode a bus, I received
a call from my mother-in-law, informing me that Ms Y came
to collect her money. I asked gingerly if it was possible
for her to pay Ms Y first and I gave the money to her late.
There was no answer from the other end of the phone. It was
The day near the spring festival, I fell gravely
ill, and the doctors who diagnosed me said I must stay in
hospital for urgent treatment.
My brother visited all his friends and business
associates to borrow money to pay the hospital bills. During
the day, he returned to the "company" to repair
computers for his clients, and at night he slept on a plank
bed in my hospital room to look after me.
My wife didn't know I was in hospital. When
she called me, I just told her I was too busy with my business
to go home.
I was hospitalised for a week, which cost
6,000 yuans in total. When my brother ran out of places to
borrow money from, he suggested to phone my wife for help.
I rejected. I knew she had no money, and I didn't want my
in-laws to cover my medical bills.
I decided to leave the hospital even though
I was still ill. I stayed with my brother while I was on
My brother is seven years younger than me and
I brought him to the city seven years ago. I ought to look
after him, but instead I turned out to be his burden. He
had to work and look after me, I noticed how exhausted he
Eventually he broke down. When I recovered
from illness, he told me he would like to terminate our business
partnership. I understood his situations and readily accepted
I felt sad though, as from then on, I was completely
left on my own.
Comments from viewers:
My current situation is quite similar to
what you were in. I had two shops with a friend. Soon it's
time for us again to pay 100,000 yuans monthly rental fee,
and I haven't got any income for three months. My business
partner is also talking about terminate our partnership.
Life is tough, especially for those from
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